update.

sorry guys.
recentle felt the need to update my blog le.
haish.
sorry i've been gone for lik months.
didnt hab the time or mood to blog.

still cant get over girlgirl's death.
HAISH.
yes.
i've brokeen down.
i've tried to let go.
but somehow or rather, her image is always iin my minds.
sometimes, i play some sad songs and it makes me tink of her.
makes me sad and cry.
recently i went to marcus hs wit frens.
saw his CUTIE jack russell.
i felt the stab in my heart again.
girlgirl, she image, came in my mind again.
i was tink of how she would be now if she wasnt dead..
happy, smiling, wit her tongue outs.
jumping happily at the sight of my return frm sch..
recieving hugs and kisses frm me..
she would be so delighted..
but another image came in..
when she was lying on a table, at the vet's, warm but cold, eyes open but shut, smiling but emotionless. in simple words.. DEAD.
when my world tumbled down.
when my tear started to fill my eyes. covering my eyesight.
WHEN GOD CHOOSE TO TAKE HER AWAY FRM ME.
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOO SO MUCH!!
Y DID YOO HAB TO TAKE HER AWAY FRM ME?
SHE WAS MY BABY MY CHILD. A PART OF MY HEART...
AND YOO TOOK HER AWAY FRM ME..
ITS UNFAIR TO ME..
UNFAIR TO HER TOOS..
I HATE LIFE,
I HATE GOD
I HATE REALITY.